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By | Erica Xenne | No Comments
i dont pay attention to people’s claims – they have no idea who they are. unless they spend a lot of time looking at old pics, rereading old diaries, organizing and considering themes that come up
nothing wrong with NOT DOING that – they’re living their life. but ive dedicated my life specifically to this kind of work
and i still didnt type myself correctly, per se, because i was thinking too much about the last several years and how i never leave the house, which was the wrong way to look at it, since im sick especially
so it’s wise to just ignore most of people’s bs and “stories they tell themselves” – *MYSELF INCLUDED – and see what they show you
and to me aub did a better job capturing this “essence” —- than anyone ive seen. it’s intimidating to realize this actually has to happen with enneagram too and i have no idea how we can get our coverage of it up to par
especially since it’s less scientific, so we have to rely on our own typings of people as evidence of what that type is like, which can become self defeating
like if one of our initial assumptions about type was wrong, and we use that as a basis for later typings… how will we know? We’re always double and triple and quadruple checking our assumptions against reality, but when does our own “claim” replace “reality” so that there’s nothing pushing against it?
there is a vultology for enneagram but it’s less technical
harder to sell or encapsulate in a list of signals
there are some , though
like head types will have more weight on their head when talking
heart types in the chest and gut types at the center
and this is pretty easily visible to the average person if you line up photos
but ive been contemplating how to really substantiate it, the way it is done here
because otherwise it’s just “your word against mine” regarding the many people sayng “Butttt I don’t relate to your description of me”
while i’m saying “No, my description of this type is EXACTLY you – look how obvious it is!”
and they’re like “Ughhh, you don’t know me! Don’t tell me who i am!”
and then you have a pointless typing session


another notch on the belt, though – experience, right?


and ive been going around in circles with this problem in the enneagram community for years. our explanations got better and better, and more persuasive, but still won’t convince many people that their own ego is not an adequate judge of itself
obviously, we also need to get excellent descriptions, excellent high-level work… which makes people question their previous assumptions. so there’s responsibility on our end too. i don’t expect people to just “swallow what i say” — when i talk about enneagram, i try to do so with care, and not just “tell people who they are” if im not really really ready to explain why in words
so i have a lot of people here asking my input, and i have ideas, but im hesitant to lay them out until we have good descriptions and objective criteria that people can see themselves in. but how to establish that? it’s all very tricky. and if it can’t be established, should enneagram just be abandoned? (even though in many cases, enneagram type is self evident?)
enneagram is touching on a lot of self-evident truth, but there still could be something missing. the model itself is up for questioning. it’s a huge undertaking.
well depends what you want from it if its not working id just drop it but stick it all back together again if see opportunity some things take time/revelations
but anyway, after years of experience with enneagram ive learned my own limits (as in, what i “relate to” isnt always necessarily the central “truth” of the matter, though theres usually something to it)
and ive learned most people will cling to their perceptions of their ego at any cost, even the cost of alienating others, being explicitly insulting or wrong about themselves in public, etc
and these arent necessarily bad people – ive done it too, to some degree
so a question ive been dealing with for a while is – what are these ego delusions doing for us?
and thats basically what enneagram exists to answer, imo.

Old post:

“Why Can’t I find my Type?”

The ego resists seeing its own defenses.

We need our defense strategies (enneagram) and biases (functions) for a reason. These strategies give the mind a pattern that it can learn to protect itself from chaos.

The defenses work on automatic..so uncovering the truth about them weakens them and leaves the ego bare, exposed, raw.

Over time it helps to see ourselves, so that we may use our defenses but prevent them from using us …

But at first, exposing the truth about our automatic reactions and “inner settings” forces us to change. The ego resists changing because it is scared of exposure and chaos…rightfully so. Whether or not someone types correctly, it is only a strong ego that can digest the true meaning of its own type… and even then, the ego will continue defending itself by creating distortions around that idea, such as taking pride in your type, being ashamed, creating internal drama around it… all of which distracts from looking at the self objectively. Embracing the deep value of typology, on an egoic level, is a lifelong journey.
so enneagram is dealing with “ego” on a level that implicitly causes mistypes to be really important to people. people need to cling to them sometimes for their own sanity
so how do you approach this topic with intellectual integrity?
and these are the questions ive been asking myself for a while.
and on a deeper level is this even a topic i should be delving into, morally speaking.
i feel like it needs to be done, and the major writers now are abusive and very misinformed. it’s created a mess. the current enneagram establishment needs to be scrutinized at its roots. and this whole tradition started with the early writers having beef with each other
and i know from experience that if something needs to be done right, i have to do it myself, but i keep on hoping that someone better will come along and do the job, so i don’t feel it pulling at me. because the moral and personal implications, not to mention the time this takes, are tremendous
but if there was a more objective system like Auburn has delved into with functions, then this would be a lot easier.. though it would still be a huge burden for me
i couldnt see all your messages.
til now.
scrolling back up
i just kept going bc i coudlnt see
another notch on the belt, though - experience, right?

I have a huge sense of purpose already. i took on enneagram study as an ‘offshoot’ for spiritual reasons within my book itself, to help me organize my spiritual systems. i honestly don’t have time for enneagram deep work that it needs, but i’ve stuck with it for this long because of being compelled by how much it helped me and how much i know it could help others if the community had a better approach…. and so many other levels of reasons.. because i met my husband on a forum, becasue we do it together etc…

i mean i did years of deep work already
but the overhaul that it needs now is just gigantic, and the deeper i got into it the clearer that became
and many people in enneagram community have noticed the same; it’s well known – but i dont know if anyone else has the tools to do this
i think me and Kat as a pair could do it well and make a real difference, and feel passionate about it too; but where do we find the time/ funds etc
sigh what a mess
it would be easier if we had come up with enneagram ourselves and previous people hadn’t made such a cartoon out of it
so part of me is considering making a whole new system as an offshoot, like the one i use in my books
and just publicizing that, with its mythology

Kabbalah and the Enneagram

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It is no doubt that the enneagram has roots in Western mysticism with one of its threads being traced to Kabbalah. Kabbalah is a system of Jewish Mysticism where the Creator (En Sof – one that’s unknowable and inaccessible/Yahweh) and the Creation are not separate beings that forms duality but rather we immanently find the Creator within his Creation and the Creator reveals aspects of himself through the Tree of Life. The tree of life is the most important symbol in Kabbalah. Each of the circles are called sephirah (plural sephiroth) which can be described as centers of god-consciousness while the 22 paths connecting the sephiroth together are energy channels. There are many ways to divide The tree of life and one way is through the 4 worlds model. Each world is symbolized by one of the Hebrew letters of the Tetragrammaton or the Divine Name of God. Each world corresponds with an element and the minor arcana represents the signs and planets traversing down The Tree of Life. These worlds corresponds to the removal, differentiation, and undifferentiation from En Sof. These worlds can be viewed from two directions – from the top down – the direction of creation or from the down top – the direction of man’s transcendence to the Divine. I’m going to proceed via the direction of creation. A friend and I discussed the Kabbalic and Buddhist influences of the enneagram. She proposed that the 4 worlds of the Kabbalah corresponds with the head, heart, and gut triads, and the 4th world is the world of enlightenment. But from here on out, I’ll go into detail into how this works.

Figure 1: http://www.soul-guidance.com/houseofthesun/treeoflifetraditional.htm

From https://aleph.org/four-worlds-judaism:

“ATZILUT, fire, the holistic world of deep divine intuition and of beingness with God. Reality is merged; all is one. This is the world of essence, where we recognize ourselves as being a spark of God’s fire. It is not we who pray; rather, God prays in us. With God’s own eye we see ourselves. Chaya and Yechidah soul aspects.” – This is the realm of enlightment/Living Daylight. From the top-bottom model, we are born into this state, but our holding environment (to use Almaas terms) precipitate our fall from this state. From bottom-top direction our goal is to reach this state.

“BRIYAH, air, the symbolic world of the intellect, of contemplation, of pure thought. Everything is part of a pattern in this world; everything has a meaning. We understand ourselves as being the result of intended, loved, and continuous creation. Here we are commanded to exert ourselves to know and to reach the very edge of what is thinkable and understandable. This is the reality of poetry, wonder, intuition, and visualization. In this world, we can work with symbols and with dreams. Neshama soul aspect.” – this corresponds to the head triad

“YETZIRAH, water, the subjective world of vital feelings; the world of affect, of nuance, of aura, of sensitivity, of visceral and proprioceptive feelings. Things are seen as synchronistic in this world. This is the world of interdependence and relationship issues. Here is where our emotional being is attuned, where negative feelings of resentment, frustration, vindictiveness, and paranoia can be replaced by an attitude of gratefulness, appreciation, and joy. Here we can learn empathy, humility, and awareness of our own mortality. Ruach soul aspect.” – heart triad

“ASSIYAH, earth, the objective world, where we live with our bodies in the physical world of action, including action for spiritual purpose. This is the world of sensible, concrete facts and their data. Here we are conscious of the physical realm and the laws of nature as we observe them. Here we are aware of being a creation of God. This is the world of duality, in which everything is seen as separate, and subject to cause and effect. This is also the world of the life force, the senses, the breath, experiencing freedom and love of life, being the God-wrestler. Guf (body); Nefesh soul aspect.” – gut triad

Figure 2

In an older thread I have written this – In the Golden Dawn Ritual Tarot by Chic Cicero and Sandra Tabatha Cicero, Briah is associated with water and emotions (and intellect) while the Yetzirah associated with air and form. The associations are switched:

Atziluth is the first of the 4 worlds and it is the domain of the Primordial Fire. This fiery domain activated and gathers the other three worlds. This is associated with the Suit of Wands and the fire signs traverse this world. This the realm of pure divinity and the worlds are birthed by fire. Masculine energy. The cause or spark.

Briah is the world of creation and the domain of the Primordial Water which represents the fluid, inventive Min. This is the world of Pure Intellect. Feminine Energy. This world is associated with the Suit of Cups and water signs. The cause gives way to creation.

Yetzirah is the third level known as the world of Formation and the domain of Primordial Air resides here. The etheric blueprint behind the material universe is found here. The suit of swords and the air signs are associated with this world. From the creation of the universe we are able to get the form of the universe. This is also the most unstable world of them all as the suit of swords traverses through it.

Assiah is the final world, the world of Action. Primordial Earth resides here. The four elements both physically manifest in sensation and in the hidden properties of matter. Form makes room for action. This world is associated with the suit of Pentacles and the earth signs.

Each world, except for Assiah, contains 3 sephiroth which can be loosely associated with the 9 types. There are a lot of structural issues with this nonetheless. The worlds’ associated sephiroth don’t neatly correspond on a one-to-one basis with the types associated in each triad but rather the association is more general.

In the future, I would like to explore the structure and actual mathematics of the enneagram.

Sp/Sx: indulgence and abstinence

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The Self Preservation instinct brings out a great dichotomy between indulgence and abstinence.

Self Preservation is connected to earth and hearth. It seeks to preserve the flame (of life): both metaphorically and literally. Self Preservation with the Social element (Sp/So) applies social order and -currency to this endeavor. Acquiring resources via trade and commerce.
In contrast, Self Preservation with the Sexual element (Sp/Sx) lacks this interactive quality. It is less ‘available’ – harder to reach – when it comes to the dynamics of the man-made clock and other media of such nature (including Facebook and WordPress). I am not speaking of frequency here, otherwise extroverted people could not be of the Sp/Sx variety – no, I am speaking of style: conversations do not follow the social code and relationships can seem to vary wildly in both status and approach. They lack social structure.

Where the Social element introduces order, the Sexual element introduces chaos: a reverence of the eternal, a union with the cosmic consciousness. Sp/Sx is identified with the Self above all, and because of this, a surrender to the all is unlikely (this is territory of Sx/So and So/Sx). Sp/Sx, singular in its nature -being ‘blind’ socially – then seeks to employ this desire for chaos and the eternal through an identification of the self as the sole object. In other words, it seeks to be(come) immortal.

Where Sp/So seeks immortality via the passage of tradition and culture, passing on the flame if you will, Sp/Sx seeks it by ‘merging’ the flame with itself. Absorption of life essence, vampiric in nature, with similarities to Sx/Sp: the greatest difference being that Sx/Sp employs one’s own mortality on the quest for union – showing a desire to replace the self with the other. This is sacrilegious to Sp/Sx, as the development and nurture of one’s own qi (ch’i, life force), regardless of belief system, is paramount for the Self Preservation instinct. It is not something to “waste.” (Waste, indulge/binge <> abstain, ascetic.) Surrender, then, becomes difficult.

Self Preservation is attuned to life, and as a natural consequence of this, to death. It concerns the cycle of life and death. Growth, birth, health. Sickness, death, decay.
As Sp/So establishes the continuation of this cycle via transactional means, Sp/Sx seeks to continue it via self-obsession/-possession. Even when obsessions can lead one’s focus astray, it will not shift the general comfort of a way that is primarily oriented towards the self and one’s toil. This includes a way that orients itself towards rejecting said toil. The toil necessary for growth, birth, health, and the toil necessary to fight sickness, death, decay.

Abstinence is the barren grey/white/ivory limbo in-between the luscious indulgence of black death/void and red/blue life/breath/flame. It is the realm of stoicism and lonely statues. It consumes without absorbing. It doesn’t live, nor does it die. It is a state of unnatural immortality: undeath.

Typing Correctly – Stripping Away my Delusions

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When I first got back into enneagram, I didn’t think I could be a four as people had suggested, though I saw the signs. My protest was that I don’t need an “identity” – that sounds contrived. I’ve known who I am all my life and I have a deep need to EXPRESS who I am. And ‘who I am’ is something I study deeply. I even practice crafts and arts so I can go into a trance and dig up some expression from deep inside myself when I’m not thinking. I try so hard to strip my soul naked and then wear the findings on my sleeve – in my art, my outfits, my passions. The idea of “identity” sounded so FRIVOLOUS. Like.. I thought of people who say “I’m gonna be goth this week 🙂 .”

Any time I saw some envious girl on the forum, flaunting a goth aesthetic… I would say to my friend in private, “look at that cunt, she’s a four.” I found the idea of identity so offensive when I spent my whole life trying to dig up and express who I am, and become who I want to be. And envy is even worse. Wanting to be someone else is UNFORGIVABLE when you have spent your whole life defining, refining and expressing who you are. Sure, I have been competitive with people… but my sense of self runs so deep, I could not possibly give it up just to “be more like” another person.

And on and on I kicked and screamed. Until someone nailed my kicking screaming pouting ass to the proverbial wall with a four case I couldn’t refuse.
Over the next few days it hit me. My friend came over, someone I knew all my life, and I told her about the 4 vs 8 dilemma, acting cool about it. Then she said “Well you know how you said counter phobic sixes are afraid of their fear? You have always been ashamed of your shame…”
I felt all the blood drain from my face. FUCK. “But I have no shame…” fuck. That wasn’t going to fly anymore.
The next day or so , I could not resist anymore and I fell to my knees and balled my guts out.
My identity was contrived… as a child. It was not “who I am” but rather, my ‘self’ was a somewhat arbitrary concept that I clung to. BUT IT DOESN’T FEEL THAT WAY. So what is left? Am I totally deluded?
Shame.. I have no shame. None. I bare my soul, naked.. I hang nude art up at school… I walk around the dorm naked.. I fuck my crush in front of the whole party in the pool… I HAVE NO SHAME…. more tears.
Ok you got me. I do it all for love, for admiration… my sense of aliveness depends upon this IDENTITY I’ve created… my feelings are an addiction….
And when I see my fellow four Milo Yiannopolus boasting about how he has no shame… I just wish so fucking badly that I could unsee it all. But here I am.

Attachment Themes In Non-Attachment Types

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Thread: would be curious to hear whether others relate.

Gut types, how does “Powerless” and other central 9 issues, resonate with you?

Head types, how does “Unsafe,” and other central 6 issues, resonate with you?

Heart types, how does “Worthless,” and other central 3 themes, resonate with you?

Edit: There is a current debate regarding whether “Unseen” is central to 9, or is an image issue. 9s and others, how does “Unseen” resonate with you?

Response: Not too long ago, I finished watching the HBO miniseries Chernobyl. The biggest threat wasn’t the nuclear radiation but the lies and the cover up for lies perpetuated by the USSR that ultimately led to the disaster and the attempted cover up of it. Whether it be a nation or an individual, lies are perpetuated to maintain one’s pride and power. As you know, pride(2) is the other face of deceit(3), and to maintain one’s pride, one must sometimes construct a personal mythology (4) in order to maintain the coveted, niche position. A sense of worthlessness is the crack in my own personal mythology that feeds my pride. In essence, I’m not as great, special, or indispensable as I thought I was therefore I’m worthless.Twos in general have an inflated sense of self, and I’m no exception. However, that self-inflation is built upon a foundation of defense mechanisms, fragile pride, and an intense personal narrative that I feed through imagination and action.

I’d rather be unseen than misconstrued, unheard, or worst of all, unveiled. To maintain a certain mystique and control over my image is to confer a sense of power and glamour to other people not unlike Soviet propaganda. The power comes in people buying into your propaganda. Once lies and half-truths take a life of their own, they become propaganda, and once propaganda gets reproduced and perpetuated enough times, it eventually becomes the Grand Narrative. Deceit requires more deceit in order to perpetuate itself, however it only takes one, core truth to destroy the whole edifice. The Chernobyl disaster exposed the incompetence, weakness, and lies of the Soviet Union and it was one of the events the catalyzed the dissolution of the USSR.

Recognizing Shame

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Typing someone is not as easy as simply asking whether they relate to anger, fear or shame – and taking their answer at face value. Enneagram unveils the lies that we tell ourselves. The ego protects us from vulnerability and chaos, and hides its patterns to protect itself. Some people will recognize the central issue at their core or some distorted version of it; others will not.

If you asked me a few years ago, I would have said I have no shame – that I’m relatively shameless compared to most people I know. It’s impossible to embarrass me and I do what I want: nude photos, shiny displays of my inner world, passionate sex.  I’m open and honest about my dark history and deep desires; my body is a canvas upon which I display my inner world. Beyond that, I’ve always been open about my flaws, and never felt a need to pretend I was perfect. Shameless, right?

I also would have said I’m resilient: I process trauma, loss and heartache so deeply and honestly that I attain catharsis. Along the way, I turn that suffering to my advantage: anything from my wildest desires to my deepest pain provides an artistic landscape. At my worst, I would write in my diary that romantic interests were art fodder.

I was a singer – my voice was my beauty, passion, identity – until an illness destroyed my vocal cords and left me speaking in a whisper permanently.  It’s no coincidence that in the years following, my image was more impressive and seductive than ever.

On the flip side, I was utterly alone: I needed to process my feelings on a constant basis. Obsessions with men took over my world and I felt consumed by them.  I could not possibly reveal my desire without getting rejected, but I wrote novels and albums baring my soul naked. Though I suffered for years over these men, I eventually presented my feelings in the form of art: only there could I possibly display the full magnitude of my emotions. This released me from their clutches: the men could turn me down, now that I had processed my deep feelings – I didn’t need them.  One of my songs ended with the lyric:

If you don’t miss me, maybe it’s better
To keep you inside me, and love the memory
If I could want you, and I could love you, but never need you
I’d be your freedom, you’d be my freedom


I did not believe my enneagram fixation was in the shame center, as I convinced myself I had no shame – and when I did, with my obsessions, I faced it in my art and then revealed everything.  But why did I make myself into an art piece? Why did I hide my desire and then obsess over some dramatic way to ‘bare my soul?’  This is what I had to dig into in order to see the shame – that it wasn’t enough for me to “just be” and “just feel” – instead, I was driven to embody my inner world and deliver my shameful desires in the form of a display.  This is the “Hide/Reveal” of Type Four.

In recognizing my shame, I also saw that I was hurting people and causing the very rejections that I so feared.  This helped me state my feelings, simply as they are – which allowed me to find love.  Since I am no longer choking on unspoken feelings, I am not overflowing with artistic frenzies.  Instead, I fulfill deeper dreams by focusing on long term projects and visions.


Type 6: Direction – less

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Imagine yourself alone in the middle of a field. The field is surrounded by dense forest and you can’t see beyond the first lines of trees and foliage. You are prepared: you are wearing your favorite boots, resilient pants, flexible top. You brought a good knife to pave a path through the forest and ward off any attackers. You feel strong and attractive. But… where do you go? Just go in blind? No, you need to know where you’re going, lest you spend all your good preparation on a wasteful journey. And worse, it would take twice as much from your resources to turn back around and start cutting a different path if you were to change your mind. No, better to know upfront, so you don’t get stuck with any mistake you may make. Let’s not move until you figure out what destiny awaits. In the meantime, you hear noises coming from the forest and you see some movement in the leaves. What’s that? Friend or foe? If foe, can I ward them off, or perhaps avoid? If friend, is their path a good one to follow also? Perhaps we could journey together. Do I stay or do I go?

This little story is a metaphor for a state of mind that I have endured for many years of my life. It is analysis paralysis, fueled by depression and great angst. It is the ‘freeze’ response to imagined danger, and this imagined danger is, at heart, a fear of the world. A fear that great cannot be fought, it cannot be fled from, and it cannot be waited out. There is no solution to it, as long as we remain fixated on this fear. Faith in the world, in the self, or in any other ‘thing’ is not the solution either, as trying to find a solution is, in itself, the problem, and is still a fixation on fear. Faith is no solution at all; instead it simply is. We are where we are on our journey because it is exactly where we were meant to be. With this understanding, – and it is an understanding one can only experience, not read or be told – you can respect the world, this includes oneself, within its bounds, and lose the egoic need to control the outcome.

Today, I have found that going anywhere at all – as long as I am moving with intent – is the answer to this dilemma. It matters not if I ‘know’ what lies ahead. In all likelihood, I’d be wrong anyway. We cannot predict the future, and attempting to do so is delusional – we are not God, we cannot know – and that is the work of the type 6 devil in each of us. So be afraid, nod at it knowing that it is there to trick you, and step forward anyway.

4w3 and Image – The World is a Stage

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The world is a stage upon which I can act out my inner drama. The way I see it, I was exiled from Erosia, and my life’s purpose is to embody its essence and channel it here on Earth.

I don’t have conscious awareness of eyes on me moment to moment – as I am focused on my own passion and desires, and honing the talents which allow me to channel them. Since I don’t actively think about others’ reactions, I never thought of myself as ‘self conscious’ until I realized I was a four, and then I saw that self-conscious “look” pervading all my photos… and felt sick.  This tells me the self-consciousness may be so pervasive and constant that I don’t even notice it.

What is conscious for me is channeling what lies within. Most people associate themselves with certain symbolism, passions or hobbies – but for me, there’s a deep dive into my internal world, and a need to wear it on my sleeve, to embody it. Throughout my life, I photograph myself, write poetic diary entries, and write songs to encapsulate my emotional journey.  When things are most dramatic – breakups, arguments, trauma – I feel the most pressing need to capture that suffering in art.  This process is cathartic and sacred: it helps me follow my deepest experience, discover who I really am, shape myself into an ideal, and ultimately, connect to others.

I don’t want people to remember me as ‘some random nice person’ – I want to be known as the embodiment of Erosia – my own creation. I want my inner world to be symbolized in my actions, outfits, and art; and ideally, I want others to find parts of themselves in it. They associate me with desire, passion…. and whatever else Erosia evokes for them. When this happens, I approach ‘Holy Origin’ – as it shows that, in some way, my audience and I are cut from the same cloth. My expression of origin resonates with their experience of their own.  In turn, I tend to bring the people I love into Erosia, and express my experience of them with symbols in my art.

I don’t do this in a calculated fashion: I don’t think “how do I want to affect others?” — instead I find a way to wear my inner world on my sleeve or mirror it in art.  Ideally, the expression would match the inside to the outside – and make it beautiful in some way, even if only in its rawness or brokenness.

When I lost my voice and could no longer sing & perform, I felt like my pipeline to others was cut off and my inner world could no longer be ‘heard,’ which made me worthless, nothing special, nobody. I’ve shared this poem from back then, many times…

am ii too jagged
or is the world too perfectly round?
sometimes ii feel like everyone else is lost
and ii, alone, am found.
but if a tree falls in the woods and no one hears it
does it make a sound?
that question is what keeps me
so tightly bound.

So, to translate – I’m fine with being different, fine with being ‘alien,’ I don’t get lonely or have some need to change myself for ‘them’ — I am found and they are lost. But I need them to hear me, to see me, to behold me. This need keeps me ‘bound’ to “them.” I need an audience or else there is no show.

Art is a lifestyle and a state of mind, but my work is not limited to expressions of ‘self.’  My magnum opus is a fantasy series in another galaxy- which has little to do with ‘me’ or my personal history.  The protagonist is nothing like me, and Erosia, as a planet, is not a major focus of this series, though it does tie in ultimately.  The art is not always directly about me; but I live as a vessel through which my passions and visions emerge.  I sacrifice everything for my art, and I see this as an expression of the lines to 1 and 2: I am a martyr.  The expression of my passions is my mission, and I live for something greater than myself.  I hope to tap into something timeless and eternal that will outlast my body, my feelings, or my tribe – something so deeply primal that it’s universal.  My art would ideally function as a mirror in which others can see themselves, stripped bare.

* Note about other 4s, from Roshan:
Tennessee Williams sp/sx 4w3 wrote deeply personal plays about people,
as a dramatic playwright, he was portraying other people.  Oscar Wilde as well.  Every 4 isn’t just evoking their own personal mythology, but they are expressing their personal experience and there will be a poetic expression somehow.  They express a very personal inner world but in different ways.  The personal is universal.  This is four ‘introjection.’

Tritype “Triple Attachment” – Basics.

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The “attachment types” are 3, 6 and 9 – so when these come together into a tritype, it makes the “triple attachment” tritype.

Here’s the basic breakdown:
You can see that the most basic, primal points of enneagram are 3, 6 and 9 – the ones that are connected by a triangle.
9 is the “central ” gut type, between the gut types 8 and 1.
6 is the “central” head type, between head types 5 and 7.
3 is the “central” heart type, between heart types 2 and 4.

9, 6 and 3 can all struggle with being “out of touch” with the center, but the classic explanation is kind of.. unrealistic. So, the classic explanation is that 9 is out of touch with anger (gut), 3 is out of touch with their shame (heart), and 6 is out of touch with inner mind, thus looking for an authority (head).

This explanation is “classic” but it has to be taken as a ‘dichotomy’ or a jumping off point. Humans are complex. So some 9s have anger and some don’t, but the anger tends to be misdirected. There’s a struggle to pin down the source of anger and aim it DIRECTLY at the problem. So people might not type at 9 because they’ll claim “I’m angry all the time.” “I feel my anger.” Etc. But they might be repressing anger at the REAL core of the issue, while having all this other anger floating around.

Likewise, each of these types are slippery in the core. 6 is out of touch with its inner authority, but is also the biggest SKEPTIC, refusing to believe input coming from others without first putting it through questioning filters. At other times, sixes will have ‘blind faith’ and just latch on to an apparent authority. Three can attach their sense of ‘value’ to accomplishments and certain other premises “out there’ that make people give them applause, like being hot, smart, or other things that appeal to a specific audience they want to attract; and thus lose sight of the shame (of having no worth) that is driving the whole thing; or they can be very aware of feeling worthless and fearing failure.

But either way, there’s something slippery there. For 9, as Robin has taught me, they can “know and not know.” At the same time. And this tritype can be like that.

Now, let’s look at the triangle.

3 integrates to 6, which integrates to 9, which integrates back to 3.
3 disintegrates to 9 which disintegrates to 6 which disintegrates back to 3.
So if someone is triple attached, all their fixes integrate and disintegrate into their other fixes, and they can get into a loop where you can’t tell which one is core.


– by Erica Xenne